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I'm not a Bulldozer.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009 @ 9:09 PM
I NEED MOTIVATION.
day started off with chem practical which i totally love it.
it was on ionic equilibria, where you get to prepare those standard solutions and compare the colour with samples to estimate the pH.
love it cos it was just so colourful! haha.
oh, and jiajun was a joke.
i rammed into this stool which passing across the bench to get testtubes.
jiajun called me a bulldozer which was totally so rofl.
but he somehow got his desserts.
he went to take his burette and when he took a turn, PIANG!
haha, 'eh, jiajun, you bulldozer uh?'
so we compared the colours and so on, damn easy but fun. haha.
miss yu took the pains to get a camera from one of the staff to take our class photo.
our first class photo eh!
rest of the day was a pain.
i can recall so distinctly how i freaked out during the math ca and failed it.
and then marhaini gave me another heart attack by giving out case study test which i failed too.
failed two tests in a day. one of which i thought i would have passed.
well, but what's there to procrastinate about and just tell myself to work harder and move on.
i hate people who procrstinate, cos i'm one of them.
i'm fine, i hope.
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there seemed to be some conflict btw annabelle and springs?
probably the two of them are both headstrong with each other, still rmb-ed them teasing each other when school started and how belle became his no. 3 slave.
hope they'll reconcile soon.
went with their group to find pw tchr and took me 45 mins at the art studio.
but the pw tchr was pretty understanding, 'not the first case i've seen', she said.
joined eyf and nic after tt to go mcyc. thanks for waiting peeps (:
the train passed by clementi, again.
and everytime it does, i'll have the urge to alight and make a trip back to my alma mater.
time obviously does not allow me to, bad time management you can say.
it seemed like the last time i saw my friends was a decade ago.
totally reminisce the times np clique stayed till later than 7 due to parade and walk to central tgt.
the strawberry yoghurt with lychee jelly, chocolate ice-blended, 2x green apple green tea, 2x ever-changing mix. one seldom drinks.
and keep waiting for the next train on the platform cos it was simply too packed for the rest of us.
and the times in 407. times when teachers give up on us cos they think we're totally a hopeless bunch of kids just pulling the school avg lower.
when vonz and miss rani rewarded us with royce for good performance.
rushing down to netball courts during recess on days with pe.
running 2.4 with siyi and how we used to pace each other.
on the contrary to bryan's class, teachers always complain that our class is too noisy.
sometimes chasing teachers out of class cos we've got them so pissed that they're gonna blast off anytime.
sometimes staying back in class for no reason or just a random chat with someone.
i miss nanhua,
but,
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i cannot go back. or i would rather not go back, cos nothing's left there except plain memories which cannot be retrieved.
i wont get to sit in the parade square anymore and greet huizhi every morning with the loudest 'good morning'.
no more last minute clarifications before tests/exams with them.
no more compulsory ptc.
no more mr wee's physics lessons.
no more fsf language.
no more laughing at vonz.
no more jesse's rantings, not that i would want.
perhaps it'll be better to just leave the memories somewhere deep in my heart where i know it'll always be in me. at least it'll feel more tangible?
cos it really hurts me to think of all the 'last times' every trip back, which will never happen another time.
now that in ac, everything's changed.
and true enough like what mr wee said before,
you'll get alot of freedom and you can choose how you wanna make use of the time.
it's really on independence, mentally and physically.
dream on about taking the back seat in project works.
forget about doing experiments in pairs.
it's mostly 'me, myself and i'.
but it's not about 'you walking alone by yourself'.
it's about teamwork. and i guess everyone pretty much sucked on that with a new team.
just hoping that my class will not be separated into distinct cliques in the near future.
'we're small, but we're not invisible.'