To think that I'm actually posting here again. Spent quite a bit of time blog-hopping and realised that some of my friends still continue to blog regularly, which kind of motivates me to blog too! (Instead of leeching what others post on Tumblr)

Holidays are (almost) always great. Except when you have too much time on your own and you start to think about useless stuff. Sometimes it's really true that if you don't spend too much time thinking about certain stuff, it will not elevate into a problem. Came across this photo on Facebook of the team and the smiles on all our faces. But it hurts to know the complexity of matters behind the smiles and how drastic the dynamics have become. The thing about beautiful thing is that they pass, as do ugly things. Guess we all need more faith and trust to open up our minds, to allow others to see the vulnerable side of us as well. Putting up a strong front only hurts oneself.

Speaking of this, I'm back to being sad again. I'm hardly in control of my own emotions these days. I recognized that they were happening, and a huge part of me wanted it to last forever. The friendship we have now is golden, and most times I'm pretty sure that this friendship is all I want.

Yet sometimes I still believe that I feel strangely, especially when we go back to that same place. Maybe it's because you always open up to me and show the vulnerable side of you that you're afraid to show just anyone else. And this trust, to me, is worth so much. I'm trying to let myself permanently see you as that buddy whom I'll be able to share that same kind of thoughts and emotions as you do, and make myself as vulnerable as you do to me.

You are undoubtedly special.